Start as you mean to go on
Jan. 2nd, 2010 09:17 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
narcasseWhile I was smoking a cigar and drinking sherry in the first few moments of the new year, it’s today that I’ve finally dealt with a few things and put some ghosts to rest. There was even an appropriately timed snowfall to coincide with those resolutions and insights.
There are things that will never be solved by me, problems that aren’t really mine that I needed to let go. Instead I need to focus on what I can do or rather what I choose to do within the limitations of what I can. There are things about myself that I need to examine and either make peace with or change and those are my first priority. There are things I want to do or learn or experience so that’s what I’m going to do. I don’t need to dwell on the things that I leave behind, the things that I can’t change because these are things that I need to resolve internally where the weight of closure weighs on me alone.
Maybe sometimes I need to remind myself that life is a learning curve and that experience is the name that everybody gives to their mistakes. I can’t go back after all so I can only further gain from everything I encounter as I move forward. Even if what I gain is understanding or compassion rather than happiness or serenity on that long, winding road.
There are things that will never be solved by me, problems that aren’t really mine that I needed to let go. Instead I need to focus on what I can do or rather what I choose to do within the limitations of what I can. There are things about myself that I need to examine and either make peace with or change and those are my first priority. There are things I want to do or learn or experience so that’s what I’m going to do. I don’t need to dwell on the things that I leave behind, the things that I can’t change because these are things that I need to resolve internally where the weight of closure weighs on me alone.
Maybe sometimes I need to remind myself that life is a learning curve and that experience is the name that everybody gives to their mistakes. I can’t go back after all so I can only further gain from everything I encounter as I move forward. Even if what I gain is understanding or compassion rather than happiness or serenity on that long, winding road.
